Andrea
I was trained inside a system that loves a checklist—assess, treat, document, repeat. And I was good at it. As a post-op bedside RN, I knew how to move fast, follow protocol, and do it “right.” From the outside, everything looked efficient. But it was also disconnected—from the body, from the human, from what was actually happening underneath all of it.
Then I had my own child in the early 2000s, and everything cracked. There wasn’t a constant stream of voices telling me what to do, no endless scrolling, no experts in my pocket. Which meant I couldn’t hide behind information. I had to pay attention. I had to feel what was happening. I had to start trusting my own body in a way I hadn’t been taught to.
That’s where this really started.
I moved into postpartum and lactation and followed the work as far as it would go inside the system—IBCLC, craniosacral, fascial work, reflex integration. I worked with the babies who didn’t fit neatly anywhere, the ones that made it obvious pretty quickly that something deeper was going on. IBCLC, CST, CFT, RMTi were all part of that path, and I know that world inside and out.
At a certain point, I chose to stop leading with it. Not because it was useless—it wasn’t. It taught me a lot, opened doors, gave me language. But it also trained me to override things I can’t ignore anymore.
My work doesn’t come from a protocol now. It doesn’t come from a checklist, and it doesn’t come from trying to fit people into something that was never built for them in the first place.
I still carry everything I learned. I just don’t answer to it anymore.